Roller coaster

The moment I set foot into the Life Flight chopper, I knew that our life was gonna change. I had so many things racing for attention in my head and yet couldnt pick one out to focus on. As I waited for the medics to get C comfortable, I looked over at Tate and Kendall being so brave across the field and couldnt stand the thought of having to leave them behind knowing Marv couldnt help them either. But I did and as the chopper lifted off I waved goodbye to them and life as we knew it! I dont remember much of the flight except the coolness on my face. I hate the fact that nothing will be the same again and I want to get angry and throw my fists in the air and shout at God 'Why us'? 'Why are we the ones that have to endure this pain and Why does my 5yr old have to go through all this torture that he doesnt deserve'? I thought I was a stronger person than this! I know God has wonderful things in store for us and he wont take us where his Grace can't sustain us, but I'm only human. I hope you wont think any less of me for questioning Gods plan.
When I first entered the hospital off the heli-pad, there was a team waiting for C and I was escorted to the waiting area till the Doc had a chance to look at him. A nurse waited there with me and began to inform me that I was in for a roller coaster ride for next few months of my life. I thought to myself is she the best they can do to comfort someone whose gone through a tramatic incident not even an hour before? I thought her to be very blunt and not wanting to talk to her anymore. Well her pep talk proved true. That evening I found myself moving up slowly on the side of the coaster, only to find myself at the bottom several hours later and not finding out when I went over the top! (Talk about a basket case in need of some meds!) We have been through this coaster so many times over the past few weeks, you would think we would know all the loops by now...NOT. Its not so much up and down as it was before, but like this evening I was reflecting on how far we have come. Not sure what brought on all the tears just now because we had a fairly good day today! Praise God!
C has surgery scheduled now tomorrow for 1pm. Please pray that Doc would be able to cover some burns with grafts instead of cadaver skin, so that we only have 1 surgery left. After a surgery it takes the donor sites 2-3 weeks to heal. It then becomes a waiting game. While they heal PT and OT can come in after day 5 and start with therapy. C will be measured for his gloves that are part of his Jobst suite (proper spelling) tomorrow. One more thing to cross off the going home list.
On a more lighter note I will get to go home tom evening if everything goes ok with tomorrows surgery. I love having that to look forward to! It makes me excited that I get to sleep in my own bed!!! C is sleeping beautifully right now so I will grab a few winks with him.
Amy